The weather is changing. It’s starting to get colder.

I have learned to appreciate this weather. I used to enjoy summer, it was my favorite season because it meant school was out, my birthday was coming, and I didn’t have to worry about catching a cold. Now that I’m older, warm weather isn’t as friendly to me… Sweating feels gross and uncomfortable when you’re just sitting there doing nothing. Cold weather feels comfier and my tolerance for it has grown tremendously.

Warm/hot coffee has become comforting again, I get to wear hoodies more often, and I’d rather bury myself in warmth with cold air than be smothered by warmth and trying to cool down.

Can’t say I’ve been bored lately because there’s always something that needs to get done… But I have definitely been avoiding my to-do lists. I don’t know why though. I stress and stress about it in my head and plan to do it by writing it down. When it comes down to the time to do it, i avoid it.

Self sabotage? Maybe. Procrastination? Part of it. Lazy? No. Overwhelmed? YES.

I’ve learned coping skills throughout several years of therapy (I wish I learned them during college), they don’t seem to work as well as they used to. Anyone else feel this way around this time of the year?

I have so much to do, yet I decide to take a nap… Orrrrr scroll through TikTok or play video games >_>

Memes are my weakness… But then when I’m just lurking around the internet in search of another cute animal video that’ll make me laugh, I remember that hey, I should probably enrich my brain by drawing or learn something new through coursera.com.

In the end, does any of this even matter? We’re all going to die someday anyways so why not do what you want? But then there’s that urge to be better and to improve the quality of life… Yet, pfffft…. that’s so much work. bleh

“sometimes it takes years for a person to become an overnight success.”

-Prince

Take care,

Jeudi